It's actually amazing how I can go out and feel like the happiest person in the world on the outside.
Went out today after school for a lovely dinner with Stella for the first time in ages, and it was lovely. And I felt happy.
Then I got back to Nathans, started working, and crashed.
I can't do these exams and succeed.
I want to just break down and cry but I feel almost made of stone. No tears flow.
And there's no-one around to let all of this out.