Wednesday, 23 May 2012

It's actually amazing how I can go out and feel like the happiest person in the world on the outside.
Went out today after school for a lovely dinner with Stella for the first time in ages, and it was lovely. And I felt happy.

Then I got back to Nathans, started working, and crashed.
I can't do these exams and succeed.
I want to just break down and cry but I feel almost made of stone. No tears flow.
And there's no-one around to let all of this out.

2 comments:

  1. Take the pressure of yourself hun. I know that this is a really important time in terms of exams and marks, but we can only do OUR OWN best. You are a smart and capable woman, don't let depression tell you otherwise. Go easy on yourself though, it's no easy task doing well in school and living with depression and all that comes with that. I know for me, battling depression means i have to accept the fact that i take longer to do uni work than most people, and i have to allow for that. I guess what i'm trying to say is, don't beat yourself up over finding things hard, that's ok. Just break down everything you have to into smaller goals and reward yourself, i always find that makes things more manageable.

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  2. Awh Michelle you are a star, thank you. I guess these exams are so important (they determine my university place!) that I almost feel like I can't afford to be depressed! But I know as well that that isn't easy.
    Thanks for being so wonderful, as always!

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